6w4d with Emelia: We have a heartbeat and mine can’t stop pounding

I’m still here. Or rather, Queso is still here. I only had to wait six days for my next ultrasound, but it seemed like a lifetime. Seriously, this was the longest wait ever. Ever. Ever, OK? I had therapy the Monday before and acupuncture on Tuesday, the day before my…

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5 weeks with Emelia: First OB Ultrasound

Let’s talk ultrasounds. Namely, my ultrasound in which I was shitting a brick over the last few days. I wasn’t as nervous about this as I was to get my third beta because the third beta had given me such good news, so I didn’t go into this with a…

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Let’s Talk Beta Numbers

I’m officially a mess. I hate focusing on numbers when it comes to infertility. While usually, betas double every 48-72 hours, they don’t always. In fact, during my frantic Googling, I learned that 15% of the time the beta doesn’t double—and everything is perfectly fine. And there’s the possibility that…

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A post about pee sticks and cautious optimism

I don’t know anyone who gets through the two week wait easily. I’ve done two of them now with a toddler in the house and it’s definitely different than all the other waits. I got off bed rest Sunday morning and decided to track it all here, from 3 days…

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This Is the First Question Everyone Asks Me When They Find Out I Used an Egg Donor

One of the best things I did when I started to realize having a baby would be harder than I thought was to start a blog about it. One, because I like attention, and two, I didn’t know anyone going through fertility issues in real life. Throughout my journey, I’ve kept a…

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