Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. It’s been almost 4 months since my last “non-Mom.com” post.
Freelance writing has been an awesome experience. Being paid to brag about my barrenness on the Internet has been fun. That being said, I miss this blog. And no, I am not intending to come off as a total asshole sell-out for neglecting this blog while I pursue other paid writing gigs.
I miss my blog. I miss reading comments on my blog. I miss being able to write with horrendous grammar while swearing like a fucking barman and stealing images off the Internet for my own personal gain. This is my space. This is where I have felt at home. Also, feel free to visit me in jail after the Internet police read this paragraph.
That being said, it makes perfect ironic sense that I would post on December 31st to come to some sort of personal closure here for 2014. Really. I’m not intending to come off as some sort of total asshole sell-out.
Here. Here is a stolen Internet picture for your enjoyment.
I do. I’m having them for my New Year’s Eve supper tonight.
Where was I going with this?
The point is, now that I have some more free time in my life, I want to come back here more often. Last year, I did an impressive 123 posts. I posted 17 times in 2014. Unacceptable.
I’m trying to be positive coming to the end of 2014. But let’s face it. It’s been a shitty year. Pretty much like 2013 was a shitty year.
We did our last cycle with my own eggs in May, which failed spectacularly.
In October, we traveled to Texas for a frozen donor cycle. We transferred two embryos, (that, it pains me to admit, of questionable quality) and that cycle ended with an assumed chemical pregnancy. It left me pissed off and terrified.
In December, my doctor in Texas decided enough was enough with my chemical pregnancies and we did a barrage of tests lovingly called an RPL panel, short for repeat pregnancy loss. Results? Sorry, you can read about it in next week’s article. Ok, so I am kind of a total asshole sell-out.
2015, you better be a better successor than your less than worthy bitchy friends, 2013 and 2014.
Ha! I've missed you SO MUCH! I'm glad to hear from you in YOUR space… feels like home! Hoping 2015 is far kinder to both of us.
Welcome back, Risa! I have been keeping up with your mom.me posts of course, but it is so good to see you post on your own blog. I look forward to seeing what the results are! I hope 2015 is your year!!!
Welcome back! Here's hoping 2015 blows all the rest out of the water with it's awesomeness!
I'm so glad to see your blog on my blog reel again!!
I miss you posting here! Come back!
Okay, I am SO out of the loop. So glad to hear from you in this space. So glad I found you on FB.
I'm so glad you have you back. I relentlessly stalked your facebook page, but couldn't comment as I don't have the protection of animinity that I do with a blog. I was really curious about your embryos based on your pictures, and I'm probably way out of line and totally being a backseat blogger, but did your doctors offer any explanation?
Very happy to see this post. Though I am heartbroken to hear about the donor egg cycle. I also went through RPL testing and it was only then that an "explanation" surfaced. Even then, my doctors didn't agree with the findings (they still don't), but it allow me to push for a change in protocol which I believe made all the difference.
The hard thing about this territory your potentially going into is that the medical literature is crap for this stuff. No one has actually done the proper experiments with good controls, hence people either assume there's no impact or (correctly) conclude that we don't know. But I think there is a link. And there is some research in basic science arena that backs this.
Looking forward to hearing the results and sending good vibes for 2015!
I missed you!! Come back here more often, please! XO
I have been able to keep up with you via FB and your articles. I was so bummed for you that your last cycle was a bust. I am hoping to hear that you maybe have found some answers and that 2015 should be shaking (I just wrote shanking, ha ha!) it it's boots cause you're comin after it!